FML

Why did you have to leave me?

What have I done to you to deserve such unjust treatment? Have I not taken care of you for the past 3 years? I invited you into my home, took care of you. Treated you like you were supposed to be treated. Kept you up to date with the latest trends.

What more can you want from me? I've given you everythingg you asked for, everytime you requested something, I stopped everything to take care of you. You were my priority. You were basically all that I had in this country.

You were my companion during those late nights when I could not fall asleep. I meet with my friends daily and you're always by my side. If it weren't for you none of this would have been possible. None of nothing. I'm lost now without you.

Why are you doing this? Is this a test? I don't want to let you go. You hold all my secrets and I'm afraid that if I let you go you will just erase them all as you've erased me from your life. And I will not allow that to happen.

I've spent many a sleepless night trying to make things right between us, to make things work. But you shut me out, you stare at me with your blank expression. Not giving away a hint of humanity, leaving me to wonder what it was that I could have done to you to deserve such treatment.

I'm willing to pay a specialist to come and try find the problem and see if there is anyway for it to be solved. I am willing to try on my own, but you're refusing to let me in, so I'm forced to have to use someone else if that will allow you to open up. I guess it's just me.

I miss you already. I really do. Time goes by so slowly without you by my side to keep me company and keep me busy and smiling.

I pray that this is just a bad dream and that when I wake up, you're bright face will be watching me. I just hope that this is you just going through a bad phase and you will soon snap out of it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I don't want to lose you. Please don't leave me.

I already feel a depression coming along.

*sigh*

FML.

Esco, out.